A Higher Self

So much has been happening lately, and no time to write. It feels, in a sense, as if everything is accelerating around me. Must be careful not to lose my grip.

I had two experiences — my first two experiences — of higher self. I can’t tell you how I know it to be higher self; the experience simply brought that label with it. Those of you who have had that experience already, I am curious if that is how it happens.

The first was while clearing my head at work, walking around the campus. I had just finished reading Erin’s article on chakras. I was focusing on spinning the colors up, not at all sure what I was doing or if it was having any result. As I moved up to white I suddenly had a very tangible experience of a deep, profound…humor, of all things. A feeling of joy and satisfaction, an experience of knowing a deep universal truth and finding it supremely…humorous. The experience — the only word that seems to fit — felt external, coming from above and around me, but connected. It lastest about 7-10 seconds, and left a lingering “afterglow” for several minutes beyond that.

The second came in a dream a few weeks later. The Dog started barking in the far too early a.m., and as I lay in bed attempting to restore quiet through sheer force of will, I remembered the dream that I had been having when I woke, of speaking to a woman among tall shelves of books, and of the encounter ending abruptly just before I woke, an ending that signified that what was spoken there was not to be remembered in the waking world. Again, the experience brought its own label; I knew “higher self” before knowing the memory.

Strange and curious. Must go be domestic now; I’ll try to plug in a bit more later.